Sobriety is only as hard as you want it to be. Trust me I spent many years struggling with it, almost died until I realized the only way I was going to be ok was to stop fighting it and stop worrying about the stupid minor shit in life, which brings me to bodybuilding.
All those years I was doing the above I was on and off in the gym trying to be the lifestyle, mostly on.
I love working out, love it. I also figured out especially the past year that if I eat clean 80% of the time, dont worry about the mnor shit like meal timing etc I am less stressed and I am slowly going towards the best shape of my life.
it won't be bodybuilding competition style in shape, but who cares about that. I enjoy a pretty busy and balanced life and get to the gym 4-5 times a week for 60-90 minutes total(closer to under 60 for the most part), I eat probably 3 good meals and a couple of snacks and have gone from 260 very unhealthy bulky lbs to 225 today while putting almost an inch on my arms and taking several inches off my waist. And if I don't feel like training hard or heavy that day, I just fucking dont. As a result I have been more consistent than I ever have been in my life, go figure. I volume train for the most part but get more sets done in an hour for a bodypart and the minor ones then most guys sitting there timing everything, fucking around with the details and staying at that 225 bench for years on end
I think stressing about all this shit is the real cause of catabolism and low test. I would rather be in half decent shape today then try to fit in 6 meals a day that I have to prep etc, and carry around some stupid bottled water everywhere.
I am almost 2 years sober and this is directed at flex B, you can take all the mest and see all the doctors you want but you need to get off your ass and get over the hump period, sitting around thinking about it will not make it better. I say this from personal exp and the many people I have met who are sober that take that god's will thing too literally to mean that they should just sit around and wait for shit to happen. I learned in treatment to have 5 things on a personal, inner and outer level type of goals every day and write sdown where you want to be a year from now, then go lut and live and in a year you will look back on these posts and think what the fuck was I thinking back then.
Good luck and congrats on the sober
My name is andrew and i am a recovering bodybuilding douchebag